Move Along

Is this the feeling of my heart breaking or is it just getting stronger? The optomist in me is telling me it's just getting stronger but I'm not so sure that's the case...

I miss my friends! I feel so disconnected from everything I have ever known and I don't like the feeling. And here come the tears... Moving away from everything, not to mention everyone, I've ever known is the hardest thing I've ever had to do so far in life. I know things could be much worse but, for me, this sucks! Hopefully it is just hard in the beginning. Hopefully this will get easier as time goes on...I hope.

I knew it would be hard to do this but my imagination is obviously not that great because I never imagined it being like this. But (and here comes the part that is hard for me to admit and I normally wouldn't...ah but what do I have to lose at this point?) I honestly think it would be easier if I hadn't met and began to hang out with this super cool guy. It's hard...really hard to go a year + without a "date", someone awesome to hang out with. Then, finally, after all that time I meet this super cool guy, we hang out for a week and then POOF! it's gone. Why does this always happen to me? Lately, whenever I meet someone, I am not in the same zip code or even state as him. Is it some crazy sign that I should be concentrating on other things in my life right now? Maybe school? But then does that mean I have to wait atleast 2 years before I find or get that special someone? I hope not because I really enjoy having a guy to hang out with, talk to, snuggle with, just someone who will be there for me and on my side. (Yes, I know I have my friends and family but having a "special someone" for those things is just great..and different.)

But, for now, I will keep trying to be patient. Apparently some force in the universe wants me to be... I'm going to try my hardest to stay positive and make the best out of this difficult situation I placed myself in because afterall, this is due to a choice I made.


This time the song attached to the title has some meaning. So, in the words of the great All-American Rejects:
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know ya do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along
...
When everything is wrong, we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

Breanne, Britany, Lynn, Bridgette, Devin and Jillian I couldn't do this without the love and support from you guys. I love you guys!!
♥