Back to Me

When I look at pictures of the things I've done and the people I have in my life, I realize how much I really do love my little life. Sometimes I lose track of what I have when I see other people, especially wealthy famous people, with their extravagant lifestyles. I'm jealous that they are pretty much able to do whatever they want and there are so so many things I want to do. And that's all I really want in life, is to be able to do or at least try to do all the things I've always dreamed of doing. But then I just have to say to myself, "That's them, not me. Be happy with what you do have, the things you have done and the people you're surrounded by because it's a whole lot better than what a lot of other people have. You'll get there some day...just keep working on it."

Living in this day in age where you can pretty much live the life of a rock star vicariously through internet sources, such as YouTube, Twitter, Facebook, etc.. is probably really unhealthy. It's almost like living in a fantasy world when you indulge in these evil little internet portals. I guess it could be used as an escape from every day life but when and where is the line drawn? Having these tasty little morsels tempt you around almost every corner of your life, between the computer and the almighty iPhone, can get you to near addiction...if not full on addiction, like the one I am trying to combat. I need to work on slowing the frequency of these addictive impulses and get back to me...who I am, not who these other people are.

Why does it have to be so easy to take things for granted? I wish it was that easy to be grateful for the things we do have. Lust is an evil evil little word.

♥ : )